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15 august 1995

Saturday, March 12, 2011
Past Present Future


I love my class. ♥


Second update for today. I just felt like relieving some stress, by saying out how i feel.
I was just doing my art, then i got reminded of what i wrote on the paper yesterday during the motivational talk.
We were tasked to pen down our goals, after graduating from PRCS, to the path we wish to take, then to our career, and finally to the kind of life we want.
The first thing that came to my mind was design. Because, its what i enjoy.
But then again, i hesistated, because, i wasnt sure if i should continue fencing or not.
And again, a choice to make.
I started to feel unsure of what i want, cause i dont seem to have a direction in life.
I started to feel worried for myself.
I felt the need to change, to turn my grades around so i cant do better.
They say, the past does not mean the kind of future we'll have.
I havent been doing well, and i fear my results continue to go downhill.
I just pray for God to be with me through this. And hopefully a positive mindset will contribute.
This camp, changed many people.
But for me, i wouldnt dare to say i've changed. At least.. not yet.
But it surely got me thinking, it made me reflect.
It made me question myself on the mindset i had when i did my papers, or before competitions.
It made me ask myself time and again if my response was positive, because the outcome was, bad.
And suddenly im thinking again, what is my goal?
All the while, i had this typical goal like everyone else did - score well for exams, get into a good poly, do my desired course, and a proper career. Thats all.
Or maybe i didnt even think that far. All i have in mind now is, do well for 'O'levels.
And then again, what is my desired course in the first place?
I feel unprepared, and raw for all this. I feel like i have very little time.
I feel so worried and nervous for my own life suddenly.
If i dont know what i want, when will i ever start working towards my goal?
Am i really giving my 100%?
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