Going through the heartaches twice through. Over and over again.
I remember saying, how the 1st of december was one of those nights when everything comes crashing down on me. So, here's another night.
Im confused, lost, and stuck.
I dont know what to do.
I dont even know what im doing, what im saying, what im thinking.
It's like im not myself anymore.
Because i dont want to give anyone anything that i cannot promise.
Its like giving an empty promise.
Feeling like im trapped within feelings i cant even comprehend.
We'll talk things out. The thing is, i need to know what i want. Apparently i dont.
Im terrified, and im sorry.

Head feels like its getting hammered.