Liangying,

Shun the discouraging voices

Flag day was alright, (:

Tampines with Wesley Azriel Avril Siyuan.

Last service @ Expo in the evening, service was good(:

Cabbed down with Lester and Gabriel to PRP.

JiaEn's birthday celebration was (Y). ^^

I loved the little song session over there, and the firesparklers were beautiful in the cameras.

Photos, ridiculous talks, singing and everything.

So Jiaen, i hope you enjoyed yesterday! (:

And the little present, one more coming up on tuesday! (:

Went home with Renjie Hidayat Halimah Melvin.

Today, tuition in the morning.

Got home and fell asleep.

Tuition again in the evening.

Then headed to Holland Village for dinner in some italian restaurant.

Super slow service but the food was yumyum.(:

Lets see, i've got work to do..

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@ 10:31 PM

We'll make it through,

Feels like a large boulder was finally lifted off my mind.
Took Geography Common Test today, earlier than the rest cause of Cadet World Cup.
So, the CTs are over, and this week's the last competition as far i as know currently.
And all that is left is Olevel Art & Birthday gifts. (:
I cant wait for Saturday, (Y)

Reporting in school @ 630. :/ sian ttvm.

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@ 10:35 PM

Fabricated world.

Cheerup dear, and i'll too. ♥

Maybe i should start learning how to control my emotions, stop judging, and stop being too sensitive.

Its just that sometimes, the thought of every single thing that is going on just drives me all weird and upset.

The feeling of being exhausted, but not having the time to even feel tired.

And now, all i can think of is to pick out every little thing to be happy about.

Someone told me, "If you're sad for a minute, you lose 60 seconds of happiness".

And im gonna work with that.

I failed my Physics, the subject i used to ace, the last subject i ever expected to fail.

Mac with Ainslyn for Double Chocolate Frappe + Cinammon Melts. (:

The especially sweet treats cheered me up.

Enjoyed talking to her recently.

I think i should go for a buffet everyday soon if all this continues.

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@ 7:40 PM

Sensitive much

I just had this urge to come on this site despite being busy and all.

Competition on Sunday didnt go as well. At least i had the word 'annoyed' written all over my face.

Fenced bad enough for round robin, and some aunty had to make things worse.

I'm not blaming her, i know she meant well, that we might get hurt, but, i was just too pissed to understand the situation at that point of time.

And you know, the kind of feeling when you already feel very bad and weak, and people just have to come forward and ask whats' wrong, comfort you, talk to you and all that, it makes things feel worse, doesnt it?

I mean, the tears probably wouldnt have come down if people just left you alone.

Yeah, they care, but, is it just me being over-sensitive?

It isnt the first time this happened recently.

Maybe these days, the stress is getting to me.

Miss Lim, Miss Ong, friends and everyone else came forward to talk to me.

Face to face, or through messages, i still feel that feeling, i dont know how to describe it.

Got home around 1030 @ night yesterday after dinner with the girls.

Sat on the mrt, like on the floor, took out my book and studied chem.

Ridiculous and pathetic? But i feel that desperate.

Even when i got home, i was so tired, trying hard enough to keep my eyes open, i couldnt. Like seriously.

I slowed my pace while walking home yesterday night.

The roads were pretty much empty, few people walking around, there wasnt anyone rushing and all, and then, the trafficlights all turned red.

That view simply paused in front of me. Like, it was so peaceful and relaxed, no pressure, no nothing.

And then, i wished my life would just be like that.

I wished things would just stop, even for a moment.

Because this whole world feels like its going too fast for me to catchup. Because im exhausted and i dont know how to carry on. Because i cant take it.

And today, had maths, the first lesson.

Common test results was.. blah.

And suddenly, everything came out.

Training today, fenced continuously for an hour plus.

My legs feel so weak, i cant use them properly.

Blisters and everything, this is crazy.

And at times, i think, if i'm putting too much into fencing.

And even if i did, why isnt there anything coming out from it?

I just want thing to slow down a little, i just want a break, i just want to leave this life for a while.

Thankyou Avril, JiaEn, Elizabeth, Wesley, Melissa, Janan, JiaJun, Syafiq, SiQi, Nicholas, Ainslyn, Desiree, XiuJie, Halimah, TzeXin. ♥

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@ 8:17 PM

Out of my mind.

Its after midnight.

Finished 7 sketches for art, left with one havent done the shading. Probably do that during recess on monday before art. :/

Finished my english compo, but its kinda short.

Maths attempted, apparently i suck @ vectors so its half empty.

Havent studied physics at all. Looked through chem but im still not confident with it.

SIANNNN UHHHHHH.

Juniors' today went alright, at least not as bad as i expected.

Lost in round of 16. Oh well.

Train-ed there with ainslyn.

Guess what, i was actually studying chemistry on the train.

Im really glad epee girls are pretty much close. (:

Met up with Fiona and Xiayin todayy during competition. Havent seen them for a long time!

Oh how much i miss them ever since they graduated. ):

So i hope Cadets' go well tomorrow...

Tuition in the early morning tomorrow,

I should sleep soon since nothing im studying is really settling in my head, seriously.

Dear backbone, i hope you're fine, cause you're making my whole body ache. ):

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@ 12:20 AM

Oh sweet nightmares

Thanks for the sweet gifts for valentines' people. (:
And the rose above ^ , from sisterrr. ♥ Beautiful(:

And dear valentine, Im so sorry i hadnt had time all the
while.
Probably this short dedication to you.
Its been 2 years, known you since primary school.
Fate, for knowing my cousin as well, brought us very much
closer.
I wished we could go out more often and get closer, im sorry i dont
have the time. ):
But, whatever it is, thankyou ♥ed!

Its the same cycle over and over again. School, extra classes, trainings, work, art, competitions, tuitions. Oh well. That basically concludes my whole week.
Im going for service on the 26th! Okay, i know its like nothing much usually, but i havent went for service for almost 3 months i think. And finally, i digged out some time to go to church again(:
Juniors' tml and Cadets' on sunday. :/
I hope my back doesnt break tml. *prays* ):

Currently working on JiaEn's gift and art.
Been rushing them all till after midnight recently. *panda eyes*

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@ 11:45 PM

Happy Sixteenth Desiree(:

This two weeks gonna be another hectic one again.
I've already screwed my english commontest, cant afford to fail my maths too.
Havent had time to study much, so currently working on maths.
Apparently i suck at probability.
Olevel art is draining me. Im so tired to complete the sketches.
Cadet, Junior and Fencing World Cup coming up in the coming weekends.
Fencing becoming like some children's play suddenly.
Science and Humans not touched at all.
Lost my stupid ezlink card for the 5th time.
Forgot to report loss, and its been a week.
Birthdays coming up.
Jiaen's gift not started.
I've been so letargic in class.
I should just faint and wake up after o levels.
Hibernating, you know.

On the happier note, simple celebration with the girls for desiree's sixteenth just yesterday night. BBQChicken, retarded chats, ridiculous cake eating session, unglam photoshots, well, not the best things to do for a birthday, but at least we enjoyed, or i did.
Happy Birthday girl! ♥ Always stay cheerful and positive. (:

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@ 11:07 PM

Rewind

I wished regrets didnt exist.
I hope i could take back my words.
I never knew just one word could make the whole atmosphere awkward and wrong.

And its like i dont have anyone to talk to bout all this nonsense like i always had.
Blame it on my life.

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@ 12:17 AM

Tied down.

I think this picture is super cute. Taken with yi-mummy and belle. ^^

Havent updated this site for about a week.
Its friday, i've been longing for it.
The last weekend was spent in bangkok, 4 days to put aside the things that are flooding me.
I love it @ Bangkok, the people are nice, and going there with the whole group is kinda enlightening. (:
I love the company of my aunts and my mum's generous self over there.
Basically, its a shopping spree there. Eat shop eat and shop eat again and shop again throughout the 4 days. Went there with 3 luggages, came back with 5. :/
I would go back there again, probably the end of the year^^

This school week felt exhausting. Tuitions occupies my nights cause of clashes and commontests.
New maid gave us too much problems, spoiling the padlock, getting locked out, not cooking enough for dinner, BADDD communication problem. Oh dang.
Back and knee problems have been killing me.
News of the World Cadet Competition, im not sure if im happy or upset about it.
Birthdays lining up, valentine's day nearing, this is crazy.
Art 2nd board to be done by the week,
I should start on my studying soon too,
Ohmy.

Dear god, please make my saturday free. ):
Unlikely..

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@ 9:14 PM

Tonight,

And suddenly i wonder if i'll even make it through this nightmare.

Apparently, my first board is still half-empty.

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@ 1:30 AM

This isnt how its supposed to be,

Happy Chinese New Year people! (:

Im supposed to leave house for the airport in about 3 hours.
I havent completed my art, or finished packing my luggage.
Not gonna sleep tonight, and i hope i get back to sg as soon as possible on 6th cause i got geog to complete too):
Sigh, reallyreally wanna celebrate this CNY with my friends. ):

I'll shop like crazyyyyy @ Bangkok. Be back on the 6th. Bye ! :D

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@ 12:46 AM

Yesterday,

I left my work under the table like countless times and couldnt do my work.
I forgot to bring home my Island Voices to complete my Lit like AGAIN.
I fell down during training today, got a new scar and it hurts alot.
My finger started bleeding for no apprent reason.
My whole right side of the body was practically paralysed for 10 mins, i dont know why.
Now my back and knee hurts like (*#(!(#^!@#)(*(!#@^*@!(^&*!!
I've got english writing which i havent completed.
I've got art and geog to finish by tomorrow, cause im leaving for bangkok in about 18 hours.
Oh Danggg. God, bless me.

The sec ones came in today, so yeah, i suddenly have nothing to say about them.
Chinese new year is like, in 14 hours. Now i feel like im too tired to get excited. Hm.
Oh, did i mention tuition tomorrow? Yup, crapppp.

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