Chalets, outings, meals, christmas, birthdays, newyear, openhouses, results, celebrating, shopping. Blah, i've been going out way too much and im spending like )!!$@%$!@$!(&*)(*^%$#@@!^&**!!

Results were pretty much satisfying, though art was a major disappointment. ):

Really have to thank God for guiding me through this, and the people around me who have been helping me with my studies, as well as encouraging me alot. <3

I wonder if anyone still reads this blog. Havent really been updating regularly.

Things have been getting a little out of hand. I feel so lost, and i really cant think of anyone to turn to.

So many matters still not resolved.

Chinese New Year's nearing, grandparent's relationship hasnt exactly got any better.

After much thought, i made a decision, somewhat.

Frankly speaking, i still dont know what im doing. It feels kind of selfish, but either way, there are consequences.

Call me greedy, but i dont want to lose my friends.

It's just painful. And what's worse is, im not sure if it affects them so much like how it hurts me.

I guess i do need a break. But honestly, i wont know how to face anyone at this rate.

I'm trying to be myself, be normal. No pretending, no nothing. But i dont wanna go around with a frown, i dont want to make things awkward if i have the ability to prevent such situations.

Further misunderstandings or what, i dont know who to blame either.

I dont know what got me into this, i dont know how to handle things anymore.

I'd like to abandon everything, and start all over again.

I wished second chances existed. Maybe i'll get things right.

Maybe.

And it keeps me wondering how fragile relationships are.

Once broken, it can never be the same as before. Scars will remain, things never heal completely.

Denial wont get us anywhere.

Pretence is just going to bring distance between us.

How long are we going to do this? How long?

We can't keep running, can we?

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